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Ranting I must say, I just cannot take the pressure of being gay any longer. The expectations that are placed upon us are so great people don’t even understand what they are doing to a gay person; forcing them to live up to some sort of standard with great expectations that are put out there in such abundance. Always having to make sure our clothes match. Do you really think that is an easy thing? Rummaging through the closet looking for that perfect shirt to match that certain pair of pants, that enhances the bulge and grants a fuller ass. You always have to look your best. Well it is, because you are gay. Clean shaved and perfect hair. Waking up at the crack of dawn to be perfect: Facial cleansers, exfoliating scrubs, herbal masks, low alcohol aftershave and night age reducing creams. An on going cycle of pathetic desire to look forever twenty one. Do you think this is cheap? A useless cost expense? We all know that mother nature will always win in the end! Explain to me why we suffer this fate, like some outrageous tax for being queer! And why are we expected to know every song sung by a female artist in the seventies. Give me a break! "I Will Survive", "Finally" and "We are Family". I was born in the seventies, I don’t need to know what the songs were. Divas of the seventies, are divas of the past. I just want to be happy knowing a few modern song artist. If I am expected to know so much about the seventies, why is it that I am expected to know all about today’s fashions. Is there no such thing as a color blind gay male (well, yes there is, but that’s why they have friends to help him dress). I want to do more with my time than read "GQ Magazine", "Vanity Fair" and other such over priced, anorexic producing, low self esteem pumping, fashion endowed magazines. Now let’s talk about our homes. Everything is based on atmosphere. What kind of atmosphere do you wish to project and how long do you expect to keep it. You think that fashion magazines change fast, Home décor is the same. Do you want a Contemporary Design, Oriental Décor, Shabby Chic, Rustic or Tuscan? How about I do as a straight man and just have an old beat up chair and my TV and remote. You can spend thousand of dollars just decorating a home or just watch "Trading Spaces" or "While You Were Out" and do it yourself. That is if you have time between your facial and fashion magazines. Let’s not forget in the middle of every other daily chore you have, you must spend time in the gym. Pumping iron, crunches, sit-ups, and cardiovascular work out. I think I saw a sign the other day for Jazzercise. Leg warmers are back in style and you never know what man you will meet, covered in sweat, heading for the steam room. I think I will just have a slice of cheesecake and watch Jane Fonda’s Workout. Fork down and lift. Sunday brunch. A social event that includes eating food you should never eat and drinking Bloody Mary’s or Mimosa. Sunday’s are days to relax, not feel like leaving the house and entertain other’s. Leave that to the social climber’s because by 6 am Sunday morning, I’ve done enough climbing. Give me a beer and click on a movie ("The Way We Were") and where are the pretzels? People get the wrong idea of what is like to be gay. They think that being gay is about the superficial nonsense of day to day life and not about love. As much as people seem to get the wrong idea of what it is like to be gay, we queers are just as responsible for the perception of what we are as a people. We don’t have to create a perfect life just so people will accept us, or conform to a stereo-type just to become what people expect us to be in life. With all this superficial plastic facades, where’s the love? That is right love. Falling in love with another person and wanting grow old together, for rich or for poor, sickness or in health, till death do us part. Love is what makes a person, not the decorations on the outside. Chastity Frustration Miss Sweetheart XIII Miss Gay Portland XXXI |
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