Who would you be today? You all know that the other night my honey and I went to the Queen concert. Sitting there she posed the question, “What do you think Queen would have been able to accomplish if Freddie had not passed away?” So I started thinking…how would my life be different if the people close to me were still alive. The photos of Freddie on the screen when he was really sick and skinny brought back a lot of memories for me. I know we all have those moments in our lives when we look back on the past and think about “what could have been”, “what might have been”, and “how would I be different if (fill in the blank) was still here with me today”? Starting with my Grandfather, who died when I was in Kindergarten. If he had not died when I was so young, would my life have been different? Would I still be living in California? Would I be ‘playing it straight’ keeping my true feelings stuffed so far down inside me that they would explode one day? Would I have found my true self? Would Krystel Belle-Rose have been born? Then I started thinking about my brother who died from AIDS. If we had the drugs then that we have now, would he still be with his lover? Would the medications that they have now been something that he would have been interested in taking? Would his life have been one full of quality or would it have just been quantity, giving his family and himself more time on this planet? So my message to everyone who reads this (if anyone does…I wonder about that too sometimes), cherish the people who are still with you because in a blink of an eye, they could be gone but also cherish the memories you have of the person/people that you have lost. Remember them…the good times but by all means remember the bad too…I remember the good times with my brother and the horrible fights that we had too…makes me smile now when I think of me trying to take him on. What the hell was I thinking? Until we meet again…take care of yourselves and play safe. Krystel Belle-Rose Rose Empress XLI |
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